[video with English subtitles]
Walk with Mooji Baba
Kissed From Inside
[Mooji] I'm really happy to see people,
some young ones, some 23, 22, 20,
are coming into satsang now, at this age, with this maturity.
I'm very happy, you know? I'm very, very happy,
because in my life, I've always moved very quickly, matured very quickly.
And so, very often I outgrew my relationships,
particularly with partners, I outgrew them very quickly
because something inside was just so wide.
If I look back a very long time, as a young person,
I was very much interested in art, painting and drawing and so on.
As I grew older, that became an obsession.
I was painting a lot. A lot of painting.
I was talking to Lakshmi this morning.
We were looking through some stained glass designs.
She asked me, 'Did you go to art school?'
I said, No, I applied, but I was refused.
At the interview they told me,
'You are practicing so many diverse things,
we don't know if you are really open for this kind of training here'.
I was very upset. But it was very good for me,
because something inside was too ... it was wanting to burst open.
My feeling was that it was going to be ...
I wanted to make the ultimate painting.
I wanted to create the ultimate work of art.
I don't know how you do this, but I had so much passion inside,
and I was painting relentlessly every day, painting, painting.
Going to the bathroom, putting up five paintings on the wall,
watching until the bath goes cold, heating it up.
And constantly feeling, What would be the greatest painting?
How would I do this? Something inside wanted to do this.
Not to compete with anything, because I've seen great works of art,
by great artists, of diverse expressions as well,
from Pablo Picasso, to Michelangelo, to Raphael, to Rembrandt,
to Titian, Cezanne and all these artists.
But it's not ... it was something else.
One night I dreamt I had finally accomplished the greatest painting.
But it was always moving, always changing, because it could not be a thing.
This is what I found.
During this time I was training in martial arts.
I was very attracted to people like Bruce Lee.
I was very much attracted to him,
because he was also searching for something
that was not just a groove of study.
It wasn't just Wing Chun, or Tai Chi, or Karate, or Taekwondo.
It was something like a synthesis of all of them,
because there was something universal inside.
He was working towards what is free, something which is free.
He started to study philosophy and all of these things.
I felt I had the same kind of obsession to try and find something
that was organically complete and all encompassing.
But I could not find it, until that knock on the door from inside came.
Because I was not searching like that.
It was just when I had this first encounter.
When I say, Kissed from inside ...
That feeling inside, that was the first taste of universality.
There was something so big, it was something so ...
It had no shape, but it was so big.
I first called, I said, God, thank you, thank you, thank you.
Because everything was in it, it was like super-nourishment.
Everything was good. And it continued like that.
Everything is good. Everything is together, everything is one.
And I realized, after this, that the urge to paint stopped.
The urge for martial arts stopped. All these urges.
Because this is what I was searching for. But I didn't know.
I was thinking I could find it in art,
and martial arts and so on, and painting.
But it was here, that's what I was searching for.
And now this is the message I share with everybody.
It's this you're searching for, the completeness,
that only the pure Self ... Not 'can give'! The Self cannot give.
To whom is it going to give?
It's just that the one who is looking for it, has to be absorbed in it.
It cannot go to the Self and take some Self away,
It has to realize, I am That, It has to come into this.
I realized, I am That. Not immediately!
There was still duality, in that I felt,
that God is somewhere else, is separate,
and God was feeding me and giving me.
It is OK, it is an OK paradigm to that feel God is giving.
But I knew also, God is inside here, that was my experience.
It's like, God is inside here.
But there was still a duality, for a while,
because I still had 'me' in the picture.
And now I don't have this 'me' in the picture. It's not in the picture.
This 'me' has become a very, very weak thing.
Somebody goes, 'Hey, Tony Moo!' Hey, how are you doing?
And I know the past is speaking.
Not the present is speaking. Not the Presence is speaking.
It's the past. Time is speaking, memory is speaking.
The one they think they know, can still kind of fake it.
Something is there. I say Hi, Hi.
It understands what you are speaking. It understands the relationships.
But they are not alive as they are in the believing mind,
when consciousness believes itself to be a person.
That can be there. It's not just, 'Tony Moo, who is Tony Moo?'
No, I know exactly what is being referred to. So will you.
You will know exactly what is being referred to
when someone calls you by your given name.
There is a name before your given name.
And the name before your given name, is 'I am'.
This 'I am' ... because everyone, every living being, every person,
refers to themselves as 'I am'.
And yet no parent gave their child the name 'I am'.
'I am' is the name of consciousness, the name of presence,
the name of God inside this body.
You are to begin there, start your search there,
to understand what this 'I am' is,
before you try and understand what everything else is.
That's what we've been trying.
To know about what outside is, you have to become a person.
But when you find what's here,
then you see that all that's outside springs from here.
This is what I want to point to.
So, the sooner you get it, the better.
This message is not for any particular group of people.
My sharing is not for just any group of people.
It's not for Muslims or Hindus or Christians exclusively.
It is for everyone! Because everyone is This.
I don't believe God made Christians and Muslims and Hindus.
That is not the essence of what we are.
That's the way in which we practice, you may say,
or this is the mirror in which we look,
or the window through which we look, to find the Supreme.
First you think He's outside only, but you must also find Him inside.
When you find Him inside, you find He is outside also.
When you find that He's inside and outside,
then inside and outside vanish, because He is everywhere.
This One is everywhere, and He has to suck you up.
Not suck you up to spit you out again, but suck you up.
In the world of sensations and experience,
He has to pull you in, and you think He's going to push you out.
When He comes out, it's really Him also, not you.
Because you have not ... you by yourself, it doesn't do it.
This human thing, this whole human thing, has never really worked.
This whole human thing, independent in its consciousness from God,
or isolated from God, has never worked. It's only survived.
To work, it must know the Supreme, it must revere the Supreme.
Only by revering the Supreme,
can it somehow feel its unity with the Supreme.
So it is not for any particular person,
any particular group, any particular age.
It's for any age, because the Self has no age.
It's not for any particular religion. The Self is beyond religion.
It's not any particular thing.
It is beyond all things, particular and general.
It is for everyone. It's even for the mouse and the rabbit
and the cat and the sky and everything,
because all of that proceeds out of Him.
So, I am happy to share this today. OK.
[music]
This message is for everyone
Everything is good
Everything is together
Everything is one
This is what I was searching for