[MUSIC PLAYING]
(RAPPING) And I always knew as a youngin one day I'd grow up
and kick the game in the stomach.
Spent a lot of time just plotting my moves.
PHIL: Shiloh was one of the women
that I have been connecting the most with.
But somebody else who caught my eye was Aisha.
Hey!
AISHA: Look at you!
PHIL: Every time we talk, it's genuine, it flows, we laugh.
So I am excited to go on a date with Aisha.
It's about time.
Smells good, looking good.
Thank you, you too.
Hold up, hold up.
Oh-- OK, gentleman.
Phil has pleasantly surprised me.
I had a whole car debacle.
He made sure, hey, are you home?
Are you OK?
And I like that.
So I felt like, OK, of course he's attracted to me.
But is it deeper than that?
Excited to finally have this one on one with you.
PHIL: I know.
We about to eat some good food.
AISHA: I know!
What was it?
This is lobster purse.
Mmm.
OK.
You're so fancy.
PHIL: Got to get the fanciness for you.
When I cook for my children, I don't
give my children paper plates.
So my friends laugh, and be like OK, bougie.
So I can look forward to these little plated dishes?
Yes.
Like, I love to cook.
What's your favorite dish?
Lobster.
I love making stuffed-- and this is-- it's all yes.
Do you think I knew that?
- See you don't know me. - You didn't think I knew that?
Don't make me go get them.
But this is really beautiful.
So what else do you have to ask me, boo?
Hmm.
There is something that's on my mind.
You know, we got to start digging deeper
and trying to get to know each other a little bit better
and understanding that.
So what do you want?
Do you want kids?
Because I've heard different things.
[LAUGHING]
Come on, now.
You talking to me.
I know, but it's still like, I--
I think Phil was able to see my vulnerable side.
I have shared things with him over the phone
that I don't think I have shared with anybody else.
And I don't know why.
I think he's such a safe place.
And if Phil is somebody that I'm interested in,
I then have to reveal why I do not want children.
When I say that I don't want kids,
that's just the easy version to get people not to dig deeper.
But then you sit before me, and I find myself liking you
more than I thought I would.
You come up as somebody that I can trust.
So I want to answer your question in full transparency.
So deeper into that is I almost lost my children twice.
Both pregnancies.
And I lost a baby once because I don't carry kids well.
And that's a part of me that, again,
that don't want to feel like a failure to my next husband.
That if I go to give him a kid, I can't
bring his kid into this world.
Come on, come on.
Come on.
Look, look.
Take a deep breath.
AISHA: It's just not that I don't want to have a baby.
PHIL: No, no, no, no, no.
Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey.
Hey. Breathe with me.
Breathe with me.
Breathe.
AISHA: [EXHALING DEEPLY]
PHIL: Breathe.
I'm happy she was able to be vulnerable with me.
I'm happy that she was able to confide in me something that's
deep, personal, and sensitive.
It's these moments that define us.
AISHA: Well, that's why I say I don't want to have a kid,
because it avoids this part.
I think he does understand me anymore.
I think after really seeing the emotion, especially, behind it,
and seeing that this girl means what
she says-- it's hurting her, and she trusted me with it.
And the fact that he came to me and consoled me
made me feel real good.
Give me your hand.
Look me in my eyes. - Mm, give me your hand.
Look in your eyes.
AISHA: I say I don't want children to mask the fact
that I don't want to fail.
It's easier to say that than face this.
I can understand that.
So that's my truth, and you deserved it.
PHIL: It's not the first time she's shared something with me.
But this one hits home because I feel her.
I feel the pain.
So seeing that, and experiencing that, how can you not like her?
How can you not fall for her in these moments?
I appreciate you even sharing that.
And I hope that you do keep that same vulnerability, because you
shouldn't be ashamed of that.
You shouldn't have to put that mask up.
Thank you, baby.
Thank you so much.
Come on.