sorry
yeah nobody knew
it's hard to talk about
This is Kayla and I in High School.
We got married really young. Shortly after I put up some videos on youtube
and our lives completely changed
we sat down at a starbucks in London, Ontario.
We decided as a couple that we were going to do this together.
I was like, I'll do whatever it is to make your job easier and lighter
and I'll be a part of every step of the way.
I was the driver, I was the technician on live tours.
Yes you would be setting up my gear.
We moved to L.A. lots of exciting things happening.
We're on our way to the Pitch Perfect premiere!
Knowing we've gotten to this spot it's taken a lot of people to believe in this project
i'm really excited to be here should be performing a little thing with vanilla ice
i think we need to invest into a choreographer
there was like this responsibility of i can't screw this up.
so we have to work hard
i cried on set, i'm just really proud.
We were constantly in all these meetings at these big giant buildings with these beautiful people.
Playing lots of like big shows. At one point we were at Elon Musk's house
We're at a swanky party.
he's playing a set at elon musk's house with morgan freeman sitting in the front we had
such an incredible opportunity super weird it felt like oh we're making it we're doing this we're so
we we're on this like really really fast train of like we gotta make this work.
it was like this it was uh keep going keep going and slowly we started to kind of lose ourselves I would say.
We were just on this fast moving train and we didn't want to fail.
i found out i was pregnant and that was when i started to really panic of we are alone but maybe i'm alone.
We moved out of LA we moved to Tennessee and and I was suffering quite a bit with postpartum
all those pressures hitting at once wanting to be great parents and wanting to
build this life and wanting to provide for our family and my priorities getting out of whack
not really really even seeing you and seeing what you're going through
There was just such a heaviness such a storm that was brewing
and we were not taking care of ourselves.
We were not being honest was the biggest problem we were not talking and i think we were just hurting each other.
I think we started to imagine what our lives would look like not together at points
that seemed like the happier thing like i want to choose to be happy i want to choose to be good and
Happiness looked like being apart.
nobody knew how much we were hurting
and how much we had been hurt by the life that we chose
yeah i started to think oh we're going to end this.
this is this is when divorce is going to happen for us it was super painful.
There were hurts that happened that we had to address.
I think that was a really breakthrough point for us
was when i was able to have that sense of freedom to be honest, to be open in the things that i was maybe hiding.
and the things that i was hiding behind.
and we had this clicking moment.
This is not everybody's story but for us, I can only contribute to our faith in God.
I think we both had a clicking moment of we both want to fight for this
while that was some of the most painful times for us that was when really things started to open up
and this beautiful relationship was starting to flourish
because we're both being able to be honest and we were communicating with each other.
Again, we're not even giving you all the details and the ins and outs of everything we're
just kind of giving you it would be a really long video yeah there was some redemption in
our relationship as we were aligning you know our purpose for being here and our purpose for being
together and it wasn't in pursuit of some career we wanted to start thriving and not just surviving
we now are constantly defining what our mission is as a couple and as a family
and i think that's what this next phase of life is is we're now defining new uh missions it's
gonna look different than what we always thought it was going to be and i think that's great it's
not gonna just just be about music music music is a part of it because it's your passion i think my
passion became my identity and so that's just not going to happen anymore we want to experience life
well while we have it here and we want to love our family love ourselves and love others and
that is our mission in life you know our story is not everyone's story we only have today today will
never happen again today will never happen again sorry i got emotional that's good i'm glad you did