The first thing that happened was ..well
the first thing that happened was...
It's not the first thing that happened,
but I tell you how the song started
How's this?
Crocker had this melody
It was really funny 'cause every song that we wrote
kind of became a bit of a joke
because every time we wrote, this little melody
would tag onto the end of it
We're sitting around, and I think Hastings
just kind of randomly started singing
You love me as You find me
I don't know why, but that little phrase really got me
I don't think even Hastings thought it was good
It was like, I kind of went away from that,
and I really loved that phrase
So I went through a season where I found myself
for a bunch of different reasons,
I guess, second-guessing myself
I think I'd lost a little bit of perspective.
I think I was tired, I was a bit worn out,
and just kind of found myself in one
of those shadowy moments, where you kind of can't figure out
what's up from down and you're not sure about anything
And I lost my confidence
I started going like, am I all right?
Maybe this is it
Maybe it'd be easy just to call it a day now,
and just kind of grow a beard,
and I don't know, whatever
And so during that time,
I was talking to different people
There was this one person in particular
who I went and talked to
And he just gave me some perspective,
kind of talked about the fact that I was fine,
like I'm not crazy, and I was just going through a process
of, what he said, was reconciling my shadow,
which understanding that there's a very human side
to who we are
He told me that I was gonna write my way out of the season,
the guy that give me tools ahead of time,
to see my way out of it
He goes, you don't have to do anything different,
you gotta use metaphor, you're gonna use story,
you're gonna use music,
and you're gonna write yourself through this
God prepared you for it
And that just made sense,
so I went home and I just started writing.
And I wrote every day,
every waking moment
Every spare moment I had, I found myself just writing stuff,
song after song after song after song
And in that moment, I found myself writing these lyrics
I've been strong and I've been broken within a moment
I've been faithful and I've been reckless at every bend
I've held everything together and watched it shatter
I've stood tall and I've crumbled in the same breath
And so that's how I felt
It's like, man, I've tried my best
and I can't do it
I've thought I've got this all together,
and then it's all falling apart
And so you stop and you go like, I don't know what to do
And so these verses are the best way
I can describe how I felt
They kind of somehow, of course, because the other bit,
the bit that we had kind of just tagged onto the end of them
and it was like, okay, this makes sense
I think everybody resonates with that feeling
sometimes, in some way
We'd already sang it a couple of times in church,
and it was right before we recorded
And I just didn't feel right
about this chorus section that we had
It just didn't feel good to me
Every time we sung it, it was kind of like it works
but I think it just wasn't saying the right thing yet
It was really late and I was sitting there with Crocker
We were just trying to figure something out
And then we figured out this part,
and it didn't have any lyric, but we just figured
out this melody that kind of felt really nice
And then on the back of it,
we just started basically singing
If You want my heart,
I won't second-guess
I need Your love more than anything
I'm in, I'm Yours
Your love's too good to leave me here
You have these moments where you're like,
that feels right, man
That's everything I wanna say,
like I'm not where I was, and it's like a daily journey
and you feel like, yeah, I feel better
I feel like there's glimpses of, oh, I think I'm
on the other side; I'm good
But then there's this moment where you stop,
you go, oh, my goodness
You remember where you were
And I'm singing these lyrics
I'm looking at them on the page,
and I'm going, He took me through that journey
for a reason and I'm on the other side
If You want my heart
I won't second-guess
'Cause I need Your love more than anything
Yes I'll bow
I'm in, I'm Yours
Your love's too good to leave me here
Your love's too good to leave me
And so that's the confession
I can't sing it without crying
And it's weird and I couldn't sing it
I'm like, who's gonna sing this song?
I mean, anyone can sing it,
but then I saw Tulele
He was at church
He played me the song, and then he even came
up to me and said, hey, it's up to you
You know what I mean?
If you wanna sing As You Find Me
If it's too much, you don't have to say yes
And I'm like, man
I just knew straight away I was like Tulele's got
to sing this song
Tulele, for those you who don't know,
he was a part of UNITED at the very beginning.
I mean, he's always been a part of UNITED,
but what I'm saying,
back then we weren't a band or anything
We were just a bunch of guys in youth group
And Tulele was there, and he had this killer presence
and this killer voice and just he bought
so much joy in to every moment
On the first time we ever toured with UNITED to Canada,
Tulele came with us
He would sing, but he would just bring
so much vibe and faith to every moment
I can say go back and listen to the old UNITED records
You'll hear his voice in every song somewhere there
Tulele's like, yeah, all right
And so I give him the lyrics
and we start teaching him, and he's like
Did you write that song about me?
Nah, man
I didn't write it about you, the song about you
It's kind of about me, but it's kind of about everybody
He's like, nah
I don't know if I wanna go and do this song
The subject matter is so personal to me
I don't know if I'm gonna make it through the song
And, well, don't even sing it then
Just get up there and just do whatever
We'll see what happens you know
And that's what happened
When I'm singing those words,
I just know that
the transparency of the words
I just know it's gonna help someone
It's perfect.
I was just in the moment
I was just like, I couldn't handle it
'cause it just felt right
'cause I know that he's singing every bit
that he can like we're always flesh and blood.
If you want my heart
I won't second-guess
'Cause I need Your love more than anything
Yes I'll bow
'Cause I'm in, I'm Yours
Your love's too good to leave me here
Your love's too good to leave me
If you want my heart
I won't second-guess
'Cause I need Your love more than anything
I'm in, I'm Yours
Your love's too good to leave me here
Your love's too good to leave me
That's the confession
I've felt like this
I'm gonna feel like this again
I've got questions, I've got doubts,
and at the end of the day, I don't understand
why You wanna use me, why You'd want my heart
But if You do, I'm not gonna second-guess it
I'm in
Feel like that's the most important lyric
I've ever been a part of
Is simply I'm in
Because the alternative to that is I'm out
And that's the option for us every single day
Are you in or are you out?
Second-guess
'Cause I need Your love more than anything
I'm in, I'm Yours
Your love's too good to leave me here
Your love's too good to leave me
If You want my heart
I won't second-guess
'Cause I need Your love more than anything
Yes I'll bow
'Cause I'm in, I'm Yours
Your love's too good to leave me here
Your love's too good to leave me
Yeah, the song's got real blood in it
Jesus' blood and a bit of human blood
ours, I don't know if that makes sense,
but that's how it feels