- Hello, lovely people.
Welcome to me doing DIY.
I know.
Didn't think we'd see this day,
but here we are.
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Today I'm going to be putting together
a little push walker for Rupert,
because Claudia unfortunately has The Curse.
- Peggy, of course I can't go swimming.
You know I've got The Curse.
- And while I do that,
I also need to be talking to you
with a bit of an update about my face.
This whole situation.
So I posted on my Instagram a little Reel a few days ago,
where someone had asked me a question
asking why I have migraines that last for two weeks,
and I sort of facetiously answered,
"I don't know.
I wish I did.
Do you know?"
But I kind of do.
It is because my face isn't right.
It's wrong.
"Why do your migraines last so long?
I'm not judging, just really curious."
You know what? Me too.
(air popping) I too am curious.
I would love to know the answer to this one.
If you don't know what a migraine is,
what a life you've lived. (air popping)
Congratulations.
I pray that you continue to live in this blessed way.
But before we get into what on earth is wrong with my face,
let's start with what we're making today,
which is a Radio Flyer push wagon.
I'm so excited.
Sorry, Tilly.
My excitement drove her off.
I have been wanting to get him this
since before he was born.
And now finally he stands up.
I mean, he stands up when holding onto something,
don't get too excited.
So that's why he needs the push wagon.
I just have to work out how to put it together.
I have a trusty toolbox.
I have, conveniently,
it did come with all the little parts,
and you know what's great?
I don't have a migraine today.
So, running with it.
'Cause it says we'll have four of this,
and six of this,
and this many of this, and blah, blah, blah.
I don't know. (paper rustling)
You know what?
We're gonna build the Flyer with this.
So what's wrong with my face?
Well, I have a connective tissue disorder,
which means that
it's the bits that hold your bones together,
and for me, they don't quite, doesn't quite work.
There's a proper explanation video and whatnot up here,
but if you can't really be arsed with that,
and that's fine, who can blame you?
Basically, my bones,
not great at holding themselves together.
That includes, unfortunately, my jawbone.
It's not actually attached, do you know,
the rest of your whole skull.
It's like your upper teeth actually there, in your skull,
lower teeth, they're on your jawbone.
Jawbone doing its own thing, flying fancy free,
you can dislocate it, which I've done,
by eating.
I would be lying if I said I wasn't also bothered
by the fact my face looks wonky.
I know, you're now going to say,
"What? No, it doesn't."
But it's my face,
and I feel that it looks wonky.
Those are my feelings.
You don't have to validate them.
That's perfectly all right.
And then it was quite nice,
because I did get to go to a specialist,
a dental person, maxfax, maxillofacial.
It validated the feeling of, "Yes, your face is wonky."
And I was like, "Oh, thanks.
I feel so seen."
She said, "That must hurt,"
and I was like, "Yes, it does hurt.
Does hurt actually."
I'm not getting very far with this.
Let me get further on.
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Now back to my building.
We'll see how that's going.
So the issue is, though,
when I have a very loose face,
it is much looser on one side than the other.
So it got really, really loose on the left side,
which made the right side get really overactive,
to basically be able to eat, and talk,
again, love to talk.
So it built up, basically it was a big, massive muscle,
which again, other people are like,
"I can't tell.
I can't see."
Now I'm in trouble.
I had not taken my daytime pills.
That's one reason I get migraines.
So yes, it got very strong on one side,
and then not on the other.
This very exciting maxfax doctor was like,
"Hey, we're gonna inject Botox in your face."
And I was like, "Oh, that seems kind of terrifying."
Because they inject a large amount into your jaw,
and your scalp.
When they do it, it kind of,
don't be put off by this,
feels slightly like it's going down your throat,
and you're drowning in numbness.
But also, it works really well.
The migraines when you don't have it are really quite bad.
The first time I had it done,
only about a five-day migraine afterwards.
For context, my migraines were generally 20 days a month,
and then after having the procedure done,
would go down to about 10 days out of the month,
but they wouldn't last more than two or three days
at a time.
But the first time I had it done,
it lasted, I had a migraine that lasted for five days,
which was a long time to have a migraine for me.
Are you laughing at me in the background?
- [Claudia] Yep.
- Right. Yes. Fine.
So I did one bit the wrong way up.
So it works really well the first time,
and I was like, "Yay, this is brilliant.
I've found something that actually helps my migraines.
I'm so excited by this."
And then they said,
"Every three months, we will bring you back,
and give you some more Botox in your face."
And I was so delighted by that. Yay!
Ah, but unfortunately, you know,
COVID meant that that did not happen.
And rather than every three months,
unfortunately it had to wait and wait,
and I was meant to be seen in December,
but instead, got waiting longer, and longer, and longer,
and I got seen in March,
and what that meant was that my, I don't know,
my face had gone back, or something,
but instead of the normal five day
with a little bit of migraine that I normally would get
after I had the Botox treatment,
this time
it was a 14-day migraine,
in the end, is what I had,
which I think is the longest migraine of my life,
other than when I had a spinal fluid leak,
which took a year and a half to resolve itself.
Still would highly recommend this treatment
to anyone who has migraines,
because it does really work.
I've seen it.
I've seen the changes (Jessica laughs).
The women in my family do get migraines,
but generally,
once they approach the menopause,
and I've had another doctor who said
that I actually have had migraines my whole life.
Migraines present differently when you're a child.
They present as like a stomach ache, rather than a headache.
♪ Chronic migraines, chronic migraines ♪
Lovely.
Why does this one have to stick out more than the others?
So the reason that I really love this walker
is because it has a clicker system.
Basically, inside the wheels,
they have little compartments,
and then there's a little plastic clicker inside
next to the spokes of the wheel.
Click, click, click, click, click, as they go round.
They don't just smoothly go round,
which means that for a little small baby,
who's just starting to walk,
there's no way that this can go too quickly for them.
I am powerful.
I am in control.
So as I was saying,
one of the things that I have been trying to work on,
or I want to work on now I am a parent,
is my independence.
I feel like as a person who grew up
with an unrecognized disability,
I have a weird, weird relationship
with the idea of independence,
because I was pushed to be independent,
when I knew it wasn't something I was ready for,
and pushed to be independent
in ways I knew that my body wasn't capable of doing,
does mean that I'm sometimes a little, now,
a little overprotective of myself,
and I can get scared of trying things,
because I'm like,
"Oh no! But I could hurt myself."
And also there's the level of,
"Oh, no! But what if I am able to do that?
What if I can?"
Because it's very hard
to win
a level of help
when you have an invisible disability,
and then you get it, and you're like,
"Yay! I have help."
And then they're like,
"Cool.
You showed that you can't do some stuff,
now go out and do stuff."
And you're like,
"Um, I'm feeling a bit worried about that one.
I don't know."
Got my whole life ahead of me.
The whole long life,
and so things I do, not just for me,
it's for Rupert too.
And that means going to learn to drive.
Don't know why that has to be the first thing.
There we go.
"Push and click into place from the back side body."
I get a little nervous,
and then I'm like, "Oh, I don't know if I want to try that.
I feel like that will probably set off a migraine for me.
Hmm.
Things like going to that really noisy children's thing,
that seems like a bit of a scary thing for me,
but that's what my little bean wants to do,
that's what I'm going to do."
Would I recommend Botox
as a thing to do for your migraines?
Yes, absolutely. Yes, I would.
I think it's a great thing to do.
I think it kind of makes you feel a bit weird, I think,
and it made me feel a bit sick this time.
I think that's just the numbness,
because your body's adjusting to it,
and especially because your jaw is so close to your neck,
and all your swallowing bits down there.
But I also get it done in my scalp,
and that can just make you feel very off,
bit dozy, bit dopey.
Depends how much that they put in you, obviously.
They put quite a high dosage in
when they're doing it for migraine.
A lot more than when they're doing it
for just like cosmetic Botox,
which is why people who do cosmetic Botox
can't just give you Botox for migraines.
So, front wheels.
Oh, look at it.
(jaunty music)
(hammer banging)
Okay.
Maybe I'll do the other wheels,
and I'll come back to that one.
I have been informed I had the wrong tools.
(jaunty music continues)
(hammer banging)
Apparently, when the metal bit hits the end,
the noise changes, and it makes a different pitch.
There are so many things
that you can just magically know by hearing.
(hammer banging)
She's just hitting it a few times.
This doesn't mean anything.
It doesn't count.
(jaunty music continues)
I made it.
- [Claudia] You haven't done the sides.
- But you can do it with or without the sides.
I know. I'm just telling you I made it.
- Well done. - Even though
you've banged some bits.
No, no. I'm making it.
Ah! You did it wrong!
- [Claudia] Oh, really?
- Oh my gosh.
(jaunty music continues)
(wood clangs)
- [Claudia] There we go.
- Yay!
I love it so much.
I'm so happy.
I'm so pleased with myself.
(bells chime)
I'm a DIY queen.
Thank you so much for watching,
and well done, Jessica,
for actually getting to the end of that.
I hope you enjoyed this DIY and catch-up video.
I've been told in the past
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but I think today we've proved I'm capable
of trying, at least, so.
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(jaunty music continues)