but all of us have areas where we feel
inadequate and if you don't you're disqualified because humility is framed from feeling inadequate
when you say i am not enough it makes you pray harder
it makes you seek harder it makes you ask for more grace
i was 17 years old i laid down and went to sleep
and while i was sleeping i dreamed i was reading a verse that i didn't know existed at the time
god was saying to a young man before i formed thee in the belly i knew thee or i ordained thee and
i sanctified thee to be a prophet to the nations and when i woke that morning i just took my bible
with with childlike faith and just let it fall open and it fell open on jeremiah and
he said before i formed thee in the belly i knew thee and i ordained thee and i sanctified thee
to be a prophet unto the nations and all of a sudden i've remembered all the stories my mother
told me about when i was born i was born with a veil over my face and then one of the neighbors
came down and said look the lord has given you a prophet and mama said a prophet she said
yeah he has a veil over his face thin membrane born over some babies faces i was one of them
that membrane the old folk said was a sign you were a prophet but i didn't know i was a
prophet so i was a wild crazy foolish ignorant rambunctious kid who got into everything and
anything all the time driving people crazy and i was having a good time doing my own thing until
god came along and messed it all up by bringing this stuff up again about me being a preacher
i ran from my calling i purposely got drunk and went wow and got high
and partied and did everything i could to convince him to go away get one of them people with the
little dollies on their head and the long skirts on and the no makeup who pray all day and talk in
tongues all the time and leave me alone because i am not one of them i'm crazy i'm ignorant i'm wow
i'm uncoof i will embarrass you i will disgrace you please don't call me this is not gonna be
good for you and it's not gonna be good for me and we should not do this together
but god didn't ask me to vote he asked me to obey and after several years of running and
after several years of going in clubs and sitting on barstools where one drunk would lean over to me
and say hey man i had the craziest dream about you i i dreamed you was preaching in this church and
and i got up and ran out of the club and i felt like david if i make my bed in hell thou art there
and if i take the wings of the morning and ascend to the uttermost parts of the earth are there
and i'm not going to be able to outrun this and i couldn't understand that god wouldn't let me go
i couldn't understand why god picked me if i get to heaven and we're only allowed one
question of peace i simply want to know why did you call me a boy from the heels of west virginia
the son of a janitor and a school teacher why did you call me and i had lots of excuses like moses i
i i had uh a speech impediment you you can't call me you can't you can't call me i didn't stutter
but i had a list i can't be a speaker because i have a list but all of us have areas where we feel
inadequate and if you don't you're disqualified because humility is framed from feeling inadequate
when you say i am not enough it makes you pray harder it makes you seek harder it makes you
ask for more grace beware of all the people who tell you they are enough
it's a sure sign that you're dealing with a fraud
because the questions the world is asking are too complicated for you to answer with a degree
the problems people are having now require divine interventions and you have to have somebody who
has heard from god not from themselves so it doesn't matter in my weakness he's made strong
in in my weakness his strength is validated so he chooses fragile broken limited people so you
won't be confused where the ointment comes from you know that the glory that we have is not of
ourselves but christ jesus the lord that has given us glory and it's him coming out of us
it's not our talent coming out of it it's not our skill coming out of it it is him coming out
both to do and to will according to his own good pleasure that's the facts and what makes god
all the more real is recognizing that he can work with such poor material that he could
that he can be so masterful as michelangelo to paint the sistine chapel with a broken brush
and i am the brush and you are the brush and you are the brush
you are the brush and he chooses broken brushes so that there will be no glory to the brush
only to the artist when the master the master bittner plans to transplant you
arguing will not stop it he will not let you go until he's moved you to the place that
he has prepared for you and you for it and placing you in that place you begin to grow
and you will know you're in the place when like joseph your branches reach over walls
when god plants you your branches reach over every denominational racial generational
wall that ever stood and i believe he wanted you to hear this at this moment in your life
at tbn our mission is to use every available means to reach as many individuals and families
as possible with the life-changing gospel of jesus christ thank you for helping make
the gospel of grace go around the world without you we couldn't do it god bless you